我看着她倒下来

昨天晚上梦见我妈病了，我看着她倒下来。我想去扶，可是扶不住。
我很着急。
我居然会着急。醒来以后一直想。原来我是会为她着急的。

我想打个电话回家，可是我能说什么能说什么呢？说我每天在学校好好学习天天向上身强体壮蓬勃发展还是前天又出去喝酒了吐得一塌糊涂昨天窝在别人家里看了一天的碟子眼睛疼回来的时候下雨了头发湿了。
我什么也说不出来，我总是拿着电话，啊啊的说不出话来。他们说什么，我都说，恩，好，我会的，不用担心。我很好。
他们感到很欣慰。
我好得都快死掉了。

我的胃好象真的不行了，吃不了东西，难受，连一包泡面都吃不下了。the pancakes。听来真快乐。我都忍不住要跟着摇头晃脑了。可惜叽里咕噜的不知道她在说些啥。

我们始终是无法摆脱这些责任的。类似原罪。

PANCAKE

I'm not sure who's fooling who here
as I'm watching your decay
We both know you could deflate
a 7 hurricane
Seems like you and your tribe
decided you'd rewrite the law
Segregate the mind
From Body From Soul

You give me yours
I'll give you mine
cause I can look your God
right in the eye
You give me yours
I'll give you mine
You used to look my God
right in the eye

I believe in defending
in what we once
stood for
It seems in vogue
to be a closet
misogynist homophobe

a change of course in
Our direction
a dash of truth
spread thinly
Like a flag
on a popstar
On a Benzodiazapene

You give me yours
I'll give you mine
cause I can look
your God
right in the eye
You give me yours
I'll give you mine
You used to look my God
right in the eye
Oh Zion please
remove your glove
+ dispel every
trace
Of His spoken word
That has lodged
In my vortex

I'm not sure who's fooling who here
as I'm watching your decay
We both know you could deflate
a 7 hurricane
You could have spared
her -- oh but no
Messiahs need
people dying in their name
You could have spared her
oh but no
Messiahs need
people dying in their
Name
You say "I ordered you a
pancake"
You say "I ordered you a
pancake"

最近很不好吗
为什么不给我电话
我不知道是不是在担心
但希望你好

小姑娘 怎么老是这样咧?